Happy Mother's Day Betty......

Today was Mother’s Day. I can’t say it was the best one...but it surely wasn’t the worst. I’ve had those. But for some reason...this year....my mother was on my mind ALOT. Is it because it might be her last? I don’t know...could be. And in all reality...I wish it was. Why would I say such a thing?

You see, my mother has alzheimers. She has had it for 11 years. The past 11 years have been eventful and hard. It’s very hard to see someone who use to call you everyday (whether you liked it or not) wither away to nothing. Not only does she have to live with this horrible disease but she is completely blind in one eye (detached retina) and very cloudy in the other. She also has diabetes. So..imagine having alzheimers and being blind at the same time.

But my mother still is very pleasant to be around. She still has a bit of a sense of humor, but each time I see her I have to introduce myself to her. I am her daughter....the baby....and she doesn’t know me. Do you know how hard it is to talk to your mother and she has no clue of who you are?

I love my mother but I love her enough to wish her to be free of this horrible disease. Do I wish she would go to sleep tonight and not wake up? You bet I do. Then she would be free of this disease and could then go to heaven and be with my father and her parents that she speaks of so often.

I was unable to visit with my mother today due to being sick and not knowing what I have. But she wouldn’t know if I came or much less that it’s Mother’s Day. My intentions are not to put a damper on anyone’s Mother’s Day. But this is all I have of my Mother today....and these are my thoughts.

So if your mother is still living...and she still calls you ....sometimes with annoying questions or tells you that story more than once...just deal with it. One day...you’ll long for those phone calls...or that story one more time...

Happy Mother’s Day Betty....I love you.